Swan 🍃

It has been a long time, a really long time,
I didn't let your figure creep to my mind,
But today,

I lost.

"Why"

I'll simply answer "I don't know"

Even when you gave me one whole year to think about the solid reason,

I still going to answer. " I don't know, why"

I'll let yours hold my mind for a while. 
But then, I made a promise to myself,
This is the last time.

And I hope so, this would be the last time.

If I could choose my path,
I'll choose not to cross yours,
Even as an acquaintance,
I still don't want to cross in.

If I have been given the chance to rewind the time,
Still, the same excuses,
Not the same road you are in,
Let we be forever stranger,

Like the plain beginning.

Chapter one was awesome, I can't deny the feeling of being loved, and loving someone
was the happiest ever thing,
Even I doubt a bit.

But it's not always bright, it was rain in chapter 14. I skipped this. Cause every time I open up,

My heart is aching more than I could bear it.

You are my galaxies, my stars, and my knight,
I am forever happy to call you these. 
Welcoming  me with flowers and a beautiful song
You created yourself
Is enough to make me happy every time when,

The world is against me,
People are criticizing me,
My own shoulder doubting me,
My feet feel so weak,
My body can't work properly,

Thank you for saving me.

But why?
The forever hang question
" you left me"

I buffer, I feel the heat.
Yes, I tried my best  to hold but it won't stop flowing,
After hearing you said all that.
This is aching, don't you feel this?

My first time I ever felt this.
The heartbroken syndrome is real,
I thought its only a myth.

Still, it is still bleeding
Tell me how to save me.
Anyone?  I need a magic elixir to heal the broken me.

But if this is the final ending

I wonder,
"Why would we meet at the first place"?

"Why not everyone else. Why you and not him? "

"Why after happy memories we created and promised we made?"

"I'll be the king, and you the queen. We are going to build a castle with our own style and creativity. Together we create our own universe where you're the crucial part to run the kingdom, promise me? Okay?"

Sunkissed. The thing that awakes my morning.

But my morning won't be the same.
Even I still got Vitamin D from sunlight ray emitting,
But not you, my important vein.
Who shines my day every morning.

Mi Amor,
Now we are strangers. But fulled with memories.

" You'll be a pretty swan"

"Why swan? Hahaha"

" I'll let you know why someday"

Up to today, I don't know what the reason is.